Feeling Safer - Kim's New York Diary

Kim's Third Person Shooter New York Diary (maxium sensation no feeling)


IMPACT Motivational: "The outside world must not come in" - O'Doherty 1999:7


DAY 1.

Kim is preparing himself for bugging out. He is being held against the table by Bobby. Bobby takes the large knife and inserts it in the centre of Kim's anterior fontanelle, splitting his body in half lengthways.

BOBBY: "Gotcha good, baby cakes."

Kim doesn't know whether to hug him with relief or kick him in the balls. Bobby discards the cold, green parts from inside Kim's head and abdomen and draws his bowels up through the opening, dropping them into the sink. Scraping out the last of it from the inside of the skull, Bobby's thinking about the flight to New York and his hand goes in a bit too far in. Kim bites Bobby's fingers from the inside of his mouth. A drop of blood from an old Art Fair wound comes out the end of Bobby's finger sticking out of Kim's mouth. Always check that the travel adaptor you are using is the correct type for the country you are travelling to and never force it into a socket if it does not easily fit.


DAY 2.

Kim's tail on vibrate against the tabletop, rapping like a horse's hoof.

KIM: "Uh-huh. You must really think I'm an ass."


DAY 3.

Kim is collecting materials. His vision now gives him shadows and shapes rather than

crisp images. He has covered his head in a Luke McCreadie curtain and is throwing the bones of Verity Birt behind his shoulder where they are springing up into all types of materials. The decapitated head lands on a sloped roof below, rolling down towards street level and falling into a garbage-filled dumpster.


DAY 4.

Kim's eyes are sore. He is working with this doll body during sleep, making mirror versions of it and this makes his eyes tired. Kim is reading Lynda King's Preppers: History and the Cultural Phenomenon to his doll body and about the Great Blizzard of 1888 giving birth to the subway systems in Boston and NY. Indeed cataclysmic and catastrophic events often lead to major innovations. As Kim is prepping art, perhaps we might anticipate innovation also? Especially if innovation grants us access to more space? In his address to the Nova Convention William Burroughs stresses that, “it is necessary to travel, it is not necessary, and becoming increasingly difficult, to live,” and so as the last frontiers of wilderness have been closed by technologies from the railway to the Internet, so potential domains of fantasy have evaporated into the spaces of science fiction. The raving man flees back the way he came. Kim's flight to New York is a science fiction fantasy. The Boeing 777 flight to New York resembles some kind of living bird.

"...whether the bird is a sinister invention of the terminators that went wrong or the result of thousands of years of machine evolution is probably not important..." - Mills, P. and O'Neill, K. 'Nemesis the Warlock: Killer Watt' episode 1, 2000 AD Prog 178 (20 Sept, 1980)


DAY 5.

“[The] act of rebellion itself, whatever the outcome, already counts as a success, insofar as it instantiates the immortal idea of freedom” - Zizek, S. Living in the End Times, London: Verso (2011:xv)

Kim's lust for the zombie is entangled in your new sports shoes. On the one hand your fantasy is tribal, rural but in a non-pastoral setting. The sports shoe wearing zombie is, perhaps, one survivor that might be deemed realistic in terms of being culturally consistent, with both commercially and academically validated precedents and outputs. COLLECT PROJECTORS AND MEDIA PLAYERS - EDIT TOGETHER VIDEOS - ATTEND BALTIC'S ARTS STRATEGY EVENT - SHIFT LINGUALS during breakfast - RETICULATE SPLINES - INT. SUBWAY STATION - ESCALATORS (N.Y.)


Day 6.

For the sake of transparency Kim needs to explain the resources/tech paradox of Feeling Safer as this will be what he is principally involved in negotiating over the next couple of days. Negotiating the paradox with heart is the secret to a successful exhibition. On the one hand Kim must follow the survivalist mantra, that tools can make all the difference in the fight for survival. A biker climbs off his counter stool, revealing a huge Bowie knife, an invaluable asset in a survival situation:

"[T]he serious advernturer will always carry one. Knives are dangerous, however, and can be used as weapons. They should be surrendered to the pilot or airline staff when travelling by air as part of standard anti-hijack procedures, and never displayed in tense or awkward circumstances." Wiseman, J. The SAS Survival Handbook, London: Collins Harvill 1986.

On the other Kim knows that Knowledge is the Key to Survival and that with knowledge he can achieve the impossible. The land is Kim's toolbox. He is a citizen of nowhere. All that he needs can be provided for he is going to be taking the biggest of apples from the tree at the centre of the modern world.


Day 7.

A narrow passageway between warehouses, Theo Scott graffiti on decrepit brownstones with shattered chicken-wire windows, moss growing on the bricks over his images as if they've been here for years. Drone footage filmed by Motsonian of Kim and Bobby as they walk through a thick blanket of steam which pours out of a factory vent. They splash through puddles; Kim spits in his own face. We move through the mist with them, revealing a tattered, rain-soaked couch and chair, upholstery shredded. A spool once used for telephone wire functions as their coffee table. Kim is held against the table by Bobby. Scene reconstructed with a freeware video game engine and labeled 'Day 1'.



There's a figure standing in the distance. But it looks too small to be Kim. We rush towards it, changing into slow motion just before impact. The figure is a dripping WETBOY with a sinister smile. YOUNG KIM.